Alright! Here is my update... I guess it has been a while, and I have neglected it. I am a little tired... but I suppose school will do that to you. I am a little weary... but that is the same old song. I am a little dissappointed... but I think that it is rare for us to like the hand that we are dealt. I still have problems learning to be content with a system that I feel is very corrupt. But it's not about the system... look at me... I have trouble keeping myself from complaining about it.
They are playing games with my mind, and I am totally kneeling down. They can see me when I weep, and they rejoice. I have fought long and hard, and they have taken it all out of me. They poke and prod at me as I lay helpless.
(Here comes my personal pep talk (this is how I re-enter the fight))
Maybe I am not so helpless...
The games have worked, so far, but I can only put up with those fools for so long. Maybe the hand doesn't look so good, but I don't have to bet on it. Life is like a dream, and one day we're going to all wake up from it. It doesn't hold a lot of weight as far as purpose goes. Many people ask "What is the meaning of life?" Probably because it doesn't seem to have one. That's the way that I think it should stay. It's just a game to see how keen your focus is... how easily you will give up. You need people by your side to keep you feeling strong and ready to take it on. You explore the things in life that keep you excited, because they keep you inspired. I think it is good to just laugh when life tries to cheat you, because it always does. You can look past all of the gloom, and even if they are barely present, focus on the good things. Take joy in something, even something small, and God will make something out of it. You will start to notice other things that become even more exciting, and the more you pursue those things, praising God for them, He will become more present in your life.
"God is most glorified in us when we are most satisfied in Him."
Maybe I will become tired, but my Father will be standing beside me. He will show me exactly how weak they have become. The influence that they hold is insignificant.
"Those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength" | 
